Rumour Has IT!!!!

Trying to write after a long hiatus is always tough, especially when at the moment I am stuck with bad gossip all around me....my so-dont-care attitude isn't helping me either....I am STUCK and STUCK-SO-BAD.....Now, I do feel the need of a much required BFF (alas, I don't have any). It feels like an endless series of cobwebs around me that could only be disentangled once I vomit out everything in my mind (trust me, its really a lot and stinks of gossip). I feel like the protagonist of a typical had-everything-and-lost-it-all-to-find-it-again movie, the only difference being I still have to find it again. I feel strange having everything and still searching for shards of luck and relief. Strangely and yet so obviously, it isn't that easy. I am impatient, over-sensitive and acting like a total control freak these days and I don't know why!!! I guess some more emotional control on my part would smooth things out but that's a far-fetched idea considering that the year 2010 was a total roller coaster for me, seeing the worst and the best phase in my life and now a mix of both which is indeed driving me bonkers. If I were to make a wish, it would be to achieve mental peace and calm in 2011. I hope God listens to me soon, not for my sake but for the sake of my near and dear ones (damn the phrase) considering the fact that I am driving them crazy owing to my own craziness. Dear God, just a little peace and a many happy endings would make this little kid of yours a much better person to be with. I hope you are listening....

 And, by the by....A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ONE AND ALL...and may God listen to you as well once he is done listening to me..........